Monthly Archives: January 2011

so now what

introversion=mysticism=contraction=process of change incurred through directing senses inward
extroversion=magick=expansion=process of change incurred through extension of the senses
centroversion=???

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Fourth Generation Feral Cats

@ Clockwise Cat

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considering centroversion

working at the antique shop is good for me.  it reminds me of when i worked at the small health food store in sugar loaf…i accomplish more of my personal goals than if i were home all day.  i bring in books, notebooks and sketchbooks, and create all day.  something about knowing that i am earning money just for sitting there takes away maybe the guilt of self-indulgence associated with creativity…i just sit back and do it without worrying about what else i should be doing.

today i read gunther’s initiation in the aeon of the child and considered centroversion.

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on sockets and conduits

if i’ve lowered my eyes and closed my mouth and sat quietly and alone, and not opened myself up to true engagement, it is only because i need to be so careful when i do so, because when i do it i do it hard, i empty myself out and take you all in to see you clearly, but this is tricky business and i’ve learned cannot be done with anyone, because if you’re that sensitive the switch of it could kill you. 

my hope is that i can trust my intuition and use it wisely, that i can keep those out that must be kept out for preservation, but not reject those for whom a connection with would be important.

and when the matter is uncertain, i wonder which mistake would be worse.

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grandmere

wrote a letter to my grandma today.  probably more important than writing self-indulgent fiction.  sick of listening to my own sick brain.  time for a new character channel.

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alissa again

without waiting

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of different drawings

so different from the picture which i should like to draw

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ceremonial

was the appropriate choice of voice for my nadja story.

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toward you toward you

I can’t be half gentle enough,
half tender enough
toward you, toward you,
inarticulate, not half loving enough
BRIGHTen
the cor
ner
where you are

I forgot how much I love this book.  William Carlos Williams could use anything (a shitty New Jersey town) as a starting point or springboard for singing the most important lyrics.

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in that i forget myself

perpetually,
in your composition and decomposition,
i find my
– despair!   
william carlos williams

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